Student Writing: "My Name is Meth"

More than 60 percent of TEEM's clients have been impacted by incarceration. But, they and many of our other clients have been imprisoned by something different than physical chains at some point in their lives: addiction. As TEEM graduate Freddie said, "Drugs are prison. Alcohol is imprisonment."

According to the most recent statistics from the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services administration, about 18 percent of Oklahoma adults aged 18-25, and about 7.5 percent of Oklahoma adults over the age of 26 have shown dependence or abuse of illegal drugs or alcohol in the past year. That's far too many of our neighbors being held captive by substances that devastate their futures, destroy their lives and tear apart their families. 

Arguably, the best part of working at TEEM is seeing individuals break free of the circumstances or substances that have imprisoned them for so long. At our weekly graduation ceremony, many students give their own sort of "victory speech," or express what they've overcome in writing. Some writing is future-focused, while other pieces offer an honest and vulnerable look at addiction and imprisonment. Too often we turn a blind eye to the person and that person's heart, and instead, focus solely on scrutinizing the addict. In an effort to shed light on the people behind the statistics, and to encourage hope that chains of addiction can be cast off, we wanted to share one student's work: "My Name is Meth."

My Name is Meth

 

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,

Take your children, and that's just the start.

 

I am more costly than diamonds, 

More precious than gold,

The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

 

If you need me, remember I am easily found

I live all around you, in schools and in town.

I live with the rich; I live with the poor,

I live down the street and maybe next door.

 

I am made in a lab but not like you think,

I can be made under the sink.

In your child's closet and in the woods,

If this scares you to death,

Well it certainly should.

 

I have many names, 

But there's one you know best

I am sure you have heard of me,

My name is crystal meth!

 

My power is awesome, try me and see,

But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,

Try me twice and I will own your soul.

 

When I possess you, you steal and you lie,

You do what you must, to just get high.

The crimes you commit, 

For my narcotic charms,

Will be worth the pleasure, 

You feel in my arms. 

 

You will lie to your mother,

You will steal from your dad,

When you see their tears,

You should feel sad.

 

You will forget your morals,

And how you were raised,

I will be your conscience,

I will teach you my ways.

 

I take kids from parents,

And parents from kids,

I turn people from GOD,

And separate friends.

 

I will take everything from you,

You looks and your pride,

But, I'll be with you always,

Right by your side. 

 

You will give up everything,

Your family and your home.

Your friends and your money.

Then, you'll be alone.

 

I will take and take 

Till you have nothing more to give,

When I am finished with you,

You will be lucky to live.

 

If you try me by warned, this is no game.

If given the chance, I will drive you insane.

 

I will ravage your body,

I will control your mind,

I will own you completely, 

Your soul will be mine.

 

The nightmares I will give you,

While lying in bed,

The voices you will hear,

From inside your head.

 

The sweats, the shakes,

The visions you will see.

I want you to know,

These are gifts from me.

 

But when it's too late,

and you know in your heart,

That you are mine, and we shall not part.

 

You will regret that you tried me, 

They always do,

But you came to me, not I to you!

 

You knew what would happen,

Many times you were told,

But you challenged my power,

And chose to be bold.

 

You could have said no,

And just walked away,

If you could live that day over,

Now what would you say?

 

I will be your master, you will be my slave,

I will even go with you 

When you go to your grave.

 

Not that you have met me,

What will you do?

Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

 

I can bring you more misery,

Than words can tell,

Come take me hand,

Let me lead you to HELL!